Well, I have officially been in Arizona for 3 weeks now, and I have already learned so much about myself. With Jon gone 90% of the time, I was able to just focus on me, realize what is actually important to me, and decide the type of person I want to be.
As I began my first week of work, my anxiety of making new friends was at a high. I have always been put into a team setting, and like it or not, those people were not just my friends, but also my family. How the hell does a 24 year old make actual friends out in the real world? I found myself reverting back to my "mean girl" phase, which I somehow thought would make me more friends.....shocker, I just looked like an ass, and I'm too old for that shit. I came home the second day of work, sat down, and wondered to myself why I thought I was somehow better than my co-workers. Why am I not even giving these people a chance? They are my peers, doing the same job as me, making the same amount of money as me, and on the same path to promotion as me. I know it's mostly to do with my own insecurities, but I need to just get over that shit....ASAP! No one actually likes the mean girl, people just hang around them out of fear of being a target. At that moment, I had a serious "what the F am I doing" moment, and decided right then and there that I was not going to be that person. I couldn't, and I didn't want to be. Sure, certain things about people annoy me, but thats natural. I have learned if I have a problem with someone, just talk to them. Talking behind someones' back does absolutely nothing besides create more problems...it was time for me to start acting like the adult I am.
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